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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

PJ's got to love them!!!

and I've spent the last couple of days in them...due to having the flu....yes there was i thinking that I'd got away from catching whatever Hubby & bear had.....no i didn't catch that..i got the bloodily flu....

Got hit by a mack truck did i...went down like a sack of shit!!!!

fever...nose running all the way to England and back.....aching all over and then some.....

But thanks god for Hubby....he did all the night feeds on Sat & Sun so yours truly could sleep and sleep i did...like the dead...which at one point one did think i was close to it......pity....pity...pity.....but I'm on the road to recovery and no my flu did not go......oink, oink, oink

One thing that i have decided to do is get some professional help re my depression...because i do think that is what i have...

i cant seem to find joy in my children at all and the only things that seem to make me feel even a little bit human is the time i get away from them and then it never seems long enough...

so...

i call the lovey Doc i went to see with Olivia back in April and I'm getting a referral to a lady who works out of the Linguard...she works with post-natal depression.....if i can get away from having to have medication i will be happy but i understand that i may need it so will take it without compliant...

i really really really what to be able to control my rage.....i seem to get anger at just about anything these days and poor Bear cops it....not fair....not right either..so lets hope something will work

Blessings

3 reflections:

Michelle said...

Good girl. Sensible.xxx

Cyndy said...

I hate to disappoint you, Helen, but you may have gone oink, oink, oink, even without realising it. The only thing missing is the cough, cough, cough....... I think that's lots of people out there have it, but just think that it's "the flu", which of course, it is...... It is EVERYWHERE..... nobody is tested for it anymore unless they are admitted to hospital.

Good on your for deciding to take charge of your depression: there HAS to be joy in life: do whatever you need to find it ;0)

Wendy said...

I understand how you feel. Support is always there if you allow yourself to accept it and it is wonderful that you are strong enough (yes, it is a great strength, not a weakness) to do what you are doing in getting help. Blessings to you.