The end is near....

Only about 11 days to go until DollyGirl is 3 months...that's from her actual birth date.....not her due date....

So then it will be all plain sailing and happy days from then on.....yes it will be...it will...I'm telling you it will be hehehehe

You know as i have been reading other blogs over the pass year or so...it has struck me that i am a very Lucky person...i didn't have a bad childhood, i was not abused in anyway, I've not done drugs, never had an alcohol problem (that could change though!!) and in most of my relationship's i have always been the one to call the shots, plus my kids are not yet that independent that they have problems of their own to deal with...

So although i read all your posts and comment sometimes i feel a bit of a fraud because I've never been through any real tough times...yes i know my Dad died 2 years ago this June but so have a lot of other peoples...

All i can do in most cases is send love to you i hope that this is enough

Strange but true

Had an argument with my mum the other night over the phone...all because mum wanted to tell me that DollyGirl would be better off not wrapped so that she could get her knees up to her chest to relieve her pain....duh mum like i haven't thought of that one myself...but all i really wanted was for her to say, you're doing a good job and it's not long too go...

Then my sister who has Little John...also with colic rang to say that she knows what I'm going through and just for that time on the phone with her i so wished that i was back in England so that we could go through this together....

Oh well as i said to my mum it was my chose to live over here and no i would not move back to England cos it's way to cold and wet for me !!!!

My little sis did say that mum may keep going on about wanting to help us.....but she asked her to come help her this week and mum is only an hour away from my little sis but mum said she didn't feel like it!!! WTF

Wishing my life away

I'm sitting here wishing it was this time next year...yes that's right cos then DollyGirl would be over a year old and so over this crap....

I wonder what happy!!!! events i would miss if i could fast forward my life...i would miss out on Bear's third birthday and dollyGirl's first Christmas but so what i say!!!!!

Happy Mother's Day?!

Well today was a strange day for me.....it start at 4am...yes DollyGirl was not playing ball....night before she slept from 8:30pm to 1:30am then until 5am....great said mum....not last night...Hubby got up but was not happy Jan about it...so DollyGirl picks up on this and plays up!!! she goes back to sleep for an hour...then Mum brings into her bed coz I'm not getting up again at 5am...so all good, she slept til 6:30am so did mum.....

but today she has not wanted to be in her cot...loved the stroller....not cot....hmmm maybe she thinks it's her mothers day!!!! got to be next and close to her mum!!!!!

oh well today is almost over...I'm off to bed when Bear goes to bed..in about 1/5 hour then hopefully will get at least 3 hours in before next feed.....

Joy of motherhood


Happy mothers day to all you mums out there......it's a privilege to be a mum

Very tired...but what's new

i have got some nasty little bug...which makes me feel like a truck has lost control and ran into me....and completely flatten me.....plus I've been so cold today...I've had four layers on and the air con....hmmmm

plus DollyGirl is over tired and only sleeping for 45 mins at a time so it's a fight to get her back to sleep...oh the joys of parenthood!!!!

Every cloud

Well Sunday night was great...had lots of sleep...Monday not so crash hot as poor DollyGirl did not seem to get out of her car capsule as she was in it when i went to pick her up from GG then in it to go to Cranio, then to Nan & Pop's then back home for a feed then back to pick Bear up from daycare...

Hench why today she did not want to sleep in her cot and it was mum pushing her in the stroller most of today to get her to sleep...one very over tired baby....

at least she did sleep and she seems to be getting better in her up times now.....loves the dummy but cant keep it in her month...hmmm i wonder if duck taping it to her month is allowed?...only kidding

I survived a night off!!!

My most wonderful MIL or GG as i like to call her...took DollyGirl for the night last night...and i survived ok...

Was a little upset when i was going to bed...but that was coz i was missing her...not coz GG could not cope or anything could go wrong...

you know it has really made me realise that i did have postnatal depression with Bear...as i would never have been able to let him stay overnight at 8 weeks old even through i really needed it...i only let GG have Bear when he was 10 months old and even then was very upset and unsure the whole time!!! well you know what they say about mothers and their sons

Sometimes it takes a little thing to open your eyes

and i slept from 9pm til 6:30am...woooooooohoooooooooo