PJ's got to love them!!!

and I've spent the last couple of days in them...due to having the flu....yes there was i thinking that I'd got away from catching whatever Hubby & bear had.....no i didn't catch that..i got the bloodily flu....

Got hit by a mack truck did i...went down like a sack of shit!!!!

fever...nose running all the way to England and back.....aching all over and then some.....

But thanks god for Hubby....he did all the night feeds on Sat & Sun so yours truly could sleep and sleep i did...like the dead...which at one point one did think i was close to it......pity....pity...pity.....but I'm on the road to recovery and no my flu did not go......oink, oink, oink

One thing that i have decided to do is get some professional help re my depression...because i do think that is what i have...

i cant seem to find joy in my children at all and the only things that seem to make me feel even a little bit human is the time i get away from them and then it never seems long enough...

so...

i call the lovey Doc i went to see with Olivia back in April and I'm getting a referral to a lady who works out of the Linguard...she works with post-natal depression.....if i can get away from having to have medication i will be happy but i understand that i may need it so will take it without compliant...

i really really really what to be able to control my rage.....i seem to get anger at just about anything these days and poor Bear cops it....not fair....not right either..so lets hope something will work

Blessings

All big Kev'd

Amazing how the universe works....

i did a visionary broad at Stroud.....which is now sitting on my toilet door...underneath a sign i made up a while ago...saying "if i can image it i can achieve it"

I thought it was a great place to put it as i would get to see it lots of times during the day / night hehehe



This part of my visionary broad is for my aim at getting fit again....and it's working really well...i have cut out/down my sugar and bread and pasta that i used to eat so much of and now am eating more fruit/veg's and i have cut my portion size to....am using a smaller plate as it helps to make you think you are still eating the same amount when your not!!!!



This part is about my Dragons and how i want to get some Dragon Orcale cards printing and published...so when i saw this course "fantasy watercolour/pencil class" in the WEA.....well i just had to enroll.....so i can learn how to draw fairies, witches..hehehe and of course Dragons....







Amazing..just amazing....

even my bad head cold that i now have can not stop me!!!!!

The Lovers

THE LOVERS

Basic Card Symbols

An angel or cupid, a man and a woman, two trees (in Waite, it is Adam & Eve with one tree having a serpent and apples) - in some decks one tree is flowering, but the other has fruit. Also in some decks there is a man standing between two women.

Basic Tarot Story

The Fool comes to a cross-road, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do. But he comes to a dead stop. A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he's been planning on taking. But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman. He's met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring. But she is different. Seeing her, he feels as though he's just been shot in the heart with cupid's arrow, so shocking, so painful is his "recognition" of her. As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies; like finding a missing part of himself, a part he's been searching for his life long. It is clear that she feels the same about him. They finish each others sentences, think the same thoughts. It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other. Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, to go somewhere else entirely, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind. Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him. No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future. He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

Basic Tarot Meaning

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. In interpretation, the card indicates that the querent has come across, or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that they will fall in love with. They will know instinctively that they must have this, even if it means diverging from their chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it they will never be complete.

Thirteen's Observations

The Lovers is a confusing card as it is ruled not by an emotional water sign but by airy Gemini. The original trump featured a man and a woman with a cupid above them about to shoot his dart. Later this became three figures, the interpretation being a man choosing between two women, or a man meeting his true love with the help of a matchmaker. Still later, with Waite, we have an Angel above Adam and Eve. The Angel stands for Raphael, who is emblematic of Mercury and Air, planet and element of Gemini. Gemini is the communications sign. It's all about messages and making contact; also, as it is the card of the twins, it's about finding your other self. In this regard, you can see that the Lovers card begins to make sense. Especially if you change it back to "LOVE." Here is a card about perfect communication, about finding something your soul requires. In this regard, its most common interpretation about being "A Choice" makes sense. When this card appears, you are being told to trust you instincts, to choose this career, challenge, person or thing you're so strongly drawn to, no matter how scary, how difficult, irrational or troublesome - without it, you will never be wholly you. It's sudden and unexpected, and it means a compete change in plans; but this is LOVE. True love. Go for it!

Hobbit House

As Cyndy wanted to know more about the hobbit house here are some inside pictures

Stroud

I have just come back from a beautiful weekend away (kid free) from Stroud....it was heaven...wished i didn't have to come back...as reality can suck...

Here are some pictures from the weekend..

The hobbit house

it's so cute!!!




The monastery where we stayed




our yule atlar

some hope

well DHead may have just redeemed himself by the skin of his teeth...he has said now that he can get on week off compassionate leave and one week off un-paid leave...

Sis was wondering why the hell he never said anything about this before...his reply "I had to check with the new boss" far enough...but why not tell Sis in the first place rather than leave her thinking that he didn't give a flying whatever!!!

Men...some should be shot at birth

More healing please

My little Sis, the one who has "little John" who is now 11 weeks old and doing a lot better,

Well she has just snapped her Achilles tendon..and is in plaster from knee to toes...

hmmm not good when you need to look after said 11 week old!!!

and Dhead (hubby) answer to this is to take the change mat down from upstairs put the mat in the lounge and let Sis bum shuffle around all day on her own!!!! WTF is wrong with this guy?

He needs to take time off work to help her out........oh my god if only i were over there I'd light a fire under his ass for sure!!!

Sis will not know until Friday how long she will be in plaster, or if they will need to operate, so please send as much healing her way....

blessings