Mad house

at the moment i have both Bear and DollyGirl going for it....and yes I'm laughing...coz it's like they're tag teaming it!!!!

Bear is into the terrible 2 in a big way and will not do anything he is asked...so he was sent to bed without lunch....his choice...and all the new toys he has been given over the last 2 weeks have been taken away....plus no TV today...hmmm not sure how I'm going to cope with that one but have to try!!!!

At least I've been to Garden City...done the shopping and bought myself some new jeans today...and this was with Bear and DollyGirl so hence why i can laugh....

Verdict

So what's the verdict on DollyGirl...she has colic...yes that's right colic...not reflux which you can do something about..but colic which you have to just grin and bare it!!!!

Oh and the doc reckons that Hubby & I are both depressed so we need to sort ourselves out and of course that will fix DollyGirl's crying....cos she picks up on our emotions...duh..doc could have told you that one for free....

Plus I'm a bad mum cos i didn't breast feed and we're both mad!!!!

I can accept that she has colic and deal with it....but I'm not depressed....just bloody tired all the time...with Bear i was depressed...but not this time....Hubby now he is depressed..but will not admit to it...

I have decided to deal with the colic in a positive way..she is not unwell...she does not have a life treating disease....and she will get over it...now I'm not going to lie to you and say this will work all the time but i am going to give it my best shot...and i have only 4 weeks to go till she is 3 months old and will grow out of it......so i will walk lots and maybe turn up at peoples place...

I've just spoken to the lovely Diana and she said that she had colic when she was pregnant with her daughter....it was great to finally understand how DollyGirl is feeling, that she is in pain and Diana reckons that you can get something to help...so it's off to the clinic nurse at Amcal tomorrow to see what they can offer us

Witch I Am

I still have not really got my head around Saturday night...think that it's due to lack of sleep and still un-settle DollyGirl...

It was a truly wondrous night...very magickal..special and totally awesome....it was great to be with so many like minded sister..the energy that was raised just from this made my hair stand on end and gave me the shivers...hehehe..not new for me i know but it was at a higher level on Saturday night..

and what beautiful gifts i received....

I was wondering before the night whether to change my magickal name or add onto it...and even when sitting waiting to be brought into circle i still had not really made up my mind..but when i stood to say my vows..."Jewell" was the only name that i felt was right for me at this time...who knows this could change later on..but i doubt it...

I also had a challenge to do for dedication night it was to write out what it meant for my to be a witch....hand write it that is...in my BOS as most of you know that is no mean feat with you have dyslexia!!! and then i read this out on the night...so hear it is ....


Witch I am, witch I be, but what sort of witch will I be?

A book witch?
Who reads everything that I can get my hands on, but then has no time to put into practice what I has learnt from those books.
With excuses poring out like the words from a book!

Witch I am, witch I be, but what sort of witch will I be?

A Coven witch?
Learning from others in a certain transition, but what if I find it too restrictive? Not to my liking….how to get out without losing friendships and sisters?

Witch I am, witch I be, but what sort of witch will I be?

A solitaire witch?
Working on my own, learning at my own pace, but what if I have questions, problems or issues, who do I ask?

Witch I am, witch I be, but what sort of witch will I be?

I will be the witch who is tolerant of others.
Who understands the energies that you put out into the universe will return three fold, mind, body and spirit.

I will be a witch who holds the law “an if it harms none so mote it be” to heart.

I will be the witch that speaks from the heart, with love, compassion and empathy for others.

I will be a witch who knows that she will never know the Wiccan Rede by heart, so will never win the “Dianna” award!!!

I am the witch who has learnt the mother aspect of the Divine and has learnt that motherhood brings with it much love, joy, happiness and tears!

I am the witch that will always try to speak her truth but also accept that others can not always do so, so will not judge others for this.

I am the witch who has still much to learn

I am the witch who has so much still to give

I am WITCH

"S" Day

Tomorrow is the big "S" day.....the day we're off to see the specialist has finally arrived....I've been looking over the last two weeks post and I'm surprised I'm even still sane.....but we've made it...now all that needs to happen is for us to find out if there is anything we can do for Dollygirl...I'm hoping the answer will be a big fat YES

and I'll have a normal...if you can have such a thing....baby.....

so i will post tomorrow pm to let you all know what happen

Tonights' the night

Very excited as it's only hours until my dedication for year one of YAAD.....will be meeting up with my sisters for a little gathering before the dedication...

Time

Do you ever get those days when time just seems to fly by and you don't know where the days gone....

Yesterday was like that for me......

Yesterday i also held my daughter twice whilst she slept, not because i had to but because i wanted to.....she was very tired from not sleeping that well on Thursday...so Friday morning i was sitting on the sofa holding her as she was a little upset the sun was coming in the window, it was lovely and warm and she started to fall asleep...so rather than get up out my nice warm sofa i held Dollygirl (yes we changed her nickname as her daddy has been calling "dollygirl" for a while now and it's kind of cute) so i held Dollygirl till she was fast asleep then kept holding her...it was great to be able to do this as she was so very cute to watch sleep....

Hubby looked after Bear as he (hubby) had put his back out that morning so was not able to go to work...

good for me not so great for him :-(

Little John

My sister's little boy William is now home...and is very well...many thanks for all your healing thoughts/love sent her and his way

My sister or Andypandy as i used to call her much to her disgust, has been breast feeding since he was born so over 2 weeks now..and now her milk has dried up...one can not blame her with all that she has been through but she is..blaming herself that is.

Why do we do this? we are only human as my lovely friends have all told me....

At least she tried and did it for 2 weeks..he will be fine i told her...i only lasted 2 days with LG...