Friday, July 31, 2009

Little John

He is going into hospital next Thursday to have his hernia operated he also has to have his right testicle pulled down into his scrotum...make your eyes water boys!!!

So if you could send some love and healing over to my Sis and her hubby and of course little John that would be wonderful..



Wednesday, July 29, 2009

interesting time with a Dragon

go check it out on my new blog

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

life is like a box of chocolates

and at the moment all i seem to be getting are the hard ones....

if it wasn't for Bear i don't think I'd want to be here....

I have often wondered how mothers can up and leave their kids and never come back.....

well today it's not that hard to understand their mind set!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Girls night out

had a great night out last night.....met up with a very good Friend of mine that had moved to Middle marsh in QLD last August.....didn't know if i was going to be able to make just cos I've been so tired lately..but made myself make the effort..

very much worth the effort too...great night...drinks, dancing and girly chats...and an awesome band on at the Blackbutt...

Plus no hangover today!!!!


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Wait n see

I have made an appointment on the 7th August with a lovey Dr in the Linguard who is said to be a very helpful friend went to see her after the birth of her second child and she does not make you take the medication if you don't want to and if she feels that there is not a real need for you to do so...a high dose of Omega 3 fish oil is said to be very good for this kind of I'm going to try and find some today..

i still feel that it is somewhat related to my periods as it is a week away and the rage/overwhelm feels that i have are getting is the time that i seem not be able to cope with DollyGirls crying at all...not even for a minute!!!

But when it's over i can deal with her crying ok...not brilliantly but ok...

oh well it's a wait n see i surpose

Monday, July 20, 2009

Dance like nobody's watching.....

These are the lyrics for a song by Paul Greene....

You're just got to work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt,
Dance like nobody's watching, you only get what you deserve.
Trust like you've never been lied to; know who you want be.
You get to choose what you want to believe in,but you gotta be free.

I think that to try to do one of those things is so hard but would be so worth it


i don't think you can ever post too many photo's this cute

"Now what's for dinner mum?"

"Any good movies on?"

Ok where do i go from here?

"Can't see me...way too many toys"

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The good, the bad and the plain ugly

The Good.....

DollyGirl slept thur the night last night....10pm till 6:20am.....woohooo.....never thought it would happen so just got to make it happen every night...

Also went to Lizotte's on Thursday night with some friends...and i highly recommend it to was a great night...we had dinner then sat and watched/listened to Paul Greene...who I'd never heard of until that night...but what performer...he is a singer/songwriter...and a great one at that...and if i can work out how to load a play list thingy onto my blog will upload some of his songs...but then you guys may already know him....

Lizottes is a music venue that used to be the Kings theatre, it supports local talent

Have to say some of his songs really touched me and made be realise how low I've been in the past few months as i have stopped listening to the music i love and dancing with Bear like we used to most days at some point in the day.....

Have done that yesterday and will do again today.....

The Bad....

hmmm...very sorry Teach but my homework for YAAD is very much not done.....cant seem to pull my finger out of my behind and get down to it....there is always something else to gardening....watching TV.....bad girl...very bad girl.....will have it done by Monday....course i will!!!!

And the plain ugly...

I had a question a while ago that i wanted to know the answer your pubic hair go grey....well I've got the answer yes they bloodily well do....i got a shock this morning in the i really am feeling my age!!!!!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

PJ's got to love them!!!

and I've spent the last couple of days in them...due to having the flu....yes there was i thinking that I'd got away from catching whatever Hubby & bear i didn't catch that..i got the bloodily flu....

Got hit by a mack truck did i...went down like a sack of shit!!!!

fever...nose running all the way to England and back.....aching all over and then some.....

But thanks god for Hubby....he did all the night feeds on Sat & Sun so yours truly could sleep and sleep i the dead...which at one point one did think i was close to it......pity....pity...pity.....but I'm on the road to recovery and no my flu did not go......oink, oink, oink

One thing that i have decided to do is get some professional help re my depression...because i do think that is what i have...

i cant seem to find joy in my children at all and the only things that seem to make me feel even a little bit human is the time i get away from them and then it never seems long enough...


i call the lovey Doc i went to see with Olivia back in April and I'm getting a referral to a lady who works out of the Linguard...she works with post-natal depression.....if i can get away from having to have medication i will be happy but i understand that i may need it so will take it without compliant...

i really really really what to be able to control my rage.....i seem to get anger at just about anything these days and poor Bear cops it....not fair....not right lets hope something will work


Thursday, July 9, 2009

All big Kev'd

Amazing how the universe works....

i did a visionary broad at Stroud.....which is now sitting on my toilet door...underneath a sign i made up a while ago...saying "if i can image it i can achieve it"

I thought it was a great place to put it as i would get to see it lots of times during the day / night hehehe

This part of my visionary broad is for my aim at getting fit again....and it's working really well...i have cut out/down my sugar and bread and pasta that i used to eat so much of and now am eating more fruit/veg's and i have cut my portion size using a smaller plate as it helps to make you think you are still eating the same amount when your not!!!!

This part is about my Dragons and how i want to get some Dragon Orcale cards printing and when i saw this course "fantasy watercolour/pencil class" in the WEA.....well i just had to i can learn how to draw fairies, witches..hehehe and of course Dragons....

Amazing..just amazing....

even my bad head cold that i now have can not stop me!!!!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The Lovers


Basic Card Symbols

An angel or cupid, a man and a woman, two trees (in Waite, it is Adam & Eve with one tree having a serpent and apples) - in some decks one tree is flowering, but the other has fruit. Also in some decks there is a man standing between two women.

Basic Tarot Story

The Fool comes to a cross-road, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do. But he comes to a dead stop. A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he's been planning on taking. But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman. He's met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring. But she is different. Seeing her, he feels as though he's just been shot in the heart with cupid's arrow, so shocking, so painful is his "recognition" of her. As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies; like finding a missing part of himself, a part he's been searching for his life long. It is clear that she feels the same about him. They finish each others sentences, think the same thoughts. It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other. Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, to go somewhere else entirely, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind. Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him. No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future. He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

Basic Tarot Meaning

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. In interpretation, the card indicates that the querent has come across, or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that they will fall in love with. They will know instinctively that they must have this, even if it means diverging from their chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it they will never be complete.

Thirteen's Observations

The Lovers is a confusing card as it is ruled not by an emotional water sign but by airy Gemini. The original trump featured a man and a woman with a cupid above them about to shoot his dart. Later this became three figures, the interpretation being a man choosing between two women, or a man meeting his true love with the help of a matchmaker. Still later, with Waite, we have an Angel above Adam and Eve. The Angel stands for Raphael, who is emblematic of Mercury and Air, planet and element of Gemini. Gemini is the communications sign. It's all about messages and making contact; also, as it is the card of the twins, it's about finding your other self. In this regard, you can see that the Lovers card begins to make sense. Especially if you change it back to "LOVE." Here is a card about perfect communication, about finding something your soul requires. In this regard, its most common interpretation about being "A Choice" makes sense. When this card appears, you are being told to trust you instincts, to choose this career, challenge, person or thing you're so strongly drawn to, no matter how scary, how difficult, irrational or troublesome - without it, you will never be wholly you. It's sudden and unexpected, and it means a compete change in plans; but this is LOVE. True love. Go for it!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Hobbit House

As Cyndy wanted to know more about the hobbit house here are some inside pictures

Monday, July 6, 2009


I have just come back from a beautiful weekend away (kid free) from was heaven...wished i didn't have to come reality can suck...

Here are some pictures from the weekend..

The hobbit house

it's so cute!!!

The monastery where we stayed

our yule atlar

Thursday, July 2, 2009

some hope

well DHead may have just redeemed himself by the skin of his teeth...he has said now that he can get on week off compassionate leave and one week off un-paid leave...

Sis was wondering why the hell he never said anything about this before...his reply "I had to check with the new boss" far enough...but why not tell Sis in the first place rather than leave her thinking that he didn't give a flying whatever!!!

Men...some should be shot at birth

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

More healing please

My little Sis, the one who has "little John" who is now 11 weeks old and doing a lot better,

Well she has just snapped her Achilles tendon..and is in plaster from knee to toes...

hmmm not good when you need to look after said 11 week old!!!

and Dhead (hubby) answer to this is to take the change mat down from upstairs put the mat in the lounge and let Sis bum shuffle around all day on her own!!!! WTF is wrong with this guy?

He needs to take time off work to help her out........oh my god if only i were over there I'd light a fire under his ass for sure!!!

Sis will not know until Friday how long she will be in plaster, or if they will need to operate, so please send as much healing her way....