Tuesday, June 30, 2009


Just letting you know that josh did not have to have his arm pinned...phew...he did have to go into surgery just so they could straighten his arm and plaster it. He is home now and will need to go back for a check-up in abut 4 weeks

Monday, June 29, 2009


Can you please send healing to my nephew Josh as he has just broken his arm again and now has to have surgery and have the break pinned.


Friday, June 26, 2009

My Major Arcana

When we were working out what our major arcana was from our birth date, i had the funnest feeling of Deja vo 9if that's how you spell it?)

I was so sure that i have been in that same moment before, and with the same people....

Anyway to calculate your birth date number you have to add all the numbers of your birth date together EG if your birth date was 19.11.1969 you would add 1+9+1+1+1+9+6+9 = 37 then add 3+7 makes 11, now in this case you can look at both cards the Fool (number 1) and Strength (number 11)

my birth date come to a 9 which is the Hermit...

In The Hermit card, the 9th card of the Tarot, the teachers of the Ageless Wisdom are providing us with a future view of the outcome of our soul's successful struggle to reach the highest level of earthly/spiritual enlightenment possible... an attainment that is attributable to and obtainable through continued discipline, diligence and dedication to the laws of Divine living.
As we view the card, most of us get a sense that The Hermit is an isolated, solitary being, one who prefers a private existence apart from the extravagance and superficiality of materialistic living. Largely that's true, but the real message he wishes to impart is just how important it is for you and I (if we wish to reach his level of attainment) to set our values above materialism's fascinations and temporal attunements. Notice that he is pictured standing on the highest peak among the surrounding mountains. In his right hand he holds a lantern which appears to be lighting his way. Actually, the lantern's light is intended for seekers, others like you and I, who are still climbing and struggling up the mountainside below him. Notice that he is looking down, watching our progress. According to Carl Jung he is very concerned and most protective of our efforts. He is really that part of us, the Divine within, that is ready to provide us instant direction and truth. We have but to go within... to ask for healing, guidance or forgiveness. For all who seek, loving support and enrichment will be returned to you many fold.
The ancients were very sharp and astute in the way they secretly blended, weaved and illustrated various Universal Metaphysical Laws and Truths within each of the cards of the Tarot. For instance... in The Hermit card they wove numerological principle into the picture and theme of the portrayal. Notice how the bodily stance of the Hermit resembles the number (9), the actual number of the card. This wasn't accidental. In numerology the number (9) represents completion, personal mastery and the conclusion or end of either a process, situation, idea or an involvement. In the case of The Hermit these number (9) qualities fit his characterization exactly.

The Hermit is the living representation of human mastery over earthly 3rd dimensional polarities, emotions and temptations. He has reached the mountaintop, the last spiritual level of mastery and is now devoting his full attention to the support and enrichment of others. In numerology, the (9) personality is also heavily involved in counseling, healing and supporting others. This is a wonderfully noble endeavor, both for The Hermit and the NINE personality, but there can be a downside. Most NINE's are so emotionally involved and committed to their work and the people they wish to protect, that they will become self-sacrificing and willing to give up their own rights and interests just to aid another. Although most humane, this inner need must be avoided at all costs. The evolved Hermit, being fully aware of this pitfall, always stipulates... "I love you and will help you, but as a Hermit, I stay apart, removed and disconnected from your personal emotional entanglements". "If you desire my help and assistance, please ask, but if you simply want to invade and drain my energies, expecting me to carry you, I will detach".

Whenever I meditate on The Hermit card, I am reminded of the ancient Greek philosopher Diogenes. He was well known for his teaching that one should practice self-control and remain steadfast in their pursuit of virtue. Legend has it that he used to walk the streets of Athens, after dark, circa (330 B.C.), searching for an honest man. He epitomizes the Hermit's quest for human and spiritual perfection. For this reason, The Hermit's lantern is known by many as "the light of Diogenes". Our Ancient Teachers inform us that the light emanating from the lantern is actually the Light of our Soul. This light is streaming out emanates from a six-pointed star which represents your Spiritual Higher Self. Many are unaware that the Higher Self and the Soul are separate entities... actually, they are really one and the same (of the same essence), but the soul remains a distinct and individual identity while operating here in the 3rd dimension. The Higher Self (the spark of the Creator) is of too high a vibration to dwell within Earth's vibrational density. Therefore, so it can be active here, your Spirit projected what is known as your "soul" to act as its agent here on Earth. The soul is in effect a "holographic projection" or as the Ancients called it, "a projected finger of fire" from Spirit. It is the soul's light that contains the ancient wisdom and knowledge gained experientially by The Hermit on its path to perfection. Now, in his exalted consciousness, he is in a position to help others as they evolve.

Finally, it's interesting to note that The Hermit wears a gray robe... it signifies that he has resolved life's polar opposites which are always shown in the Tarot as either White (positive energy) and Black (negative energy). Gray is the blended neutrality of these Black and White opposites. In his left hand he holds the suspended yellow rod or staff of intellect and higher knowledge. This storehouse of wisdom resides within his subconscious mind. In the Tarot anything held in the left hand is automatically subjective and of a subconscious nature. Anything held in the right hand (the lantern) manifests within the conscious awareness of the individual.

feeling better

well the trip[ to the naturopath is working, my herbs have started to kick what with them and my up coming weekend away from kids...woohoo...i should be ready to take on the world...or maybe just my kids again LOL


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

New Blog

Ok so here is my new blog please take the time to go have a look and let me know what you think

Thank you

A very, very big Thank you to the lovely Jane who came to my rescue this afternoon when i was having a bad moment/day with DollyGirl....

Inspired by Kora

well i have been inspired by our lovely Kora....

I am going to get another blog going to blog my feeling / thinking about my Wiccan studies plus my Dragons again....

My Dragons have been pushing for this for sometime but my brain has been in a fog for the last 3 months now i think it is clearing...and this new blog will help.

Watch this space for more

Monday, June 22, 2009

Lets wait and see

am going to a naturopath this morning, as i want to try the natural way first before going to my Dr, but i thank you all for your comments and support.

Yes this month is a bad one for me and as dear Kora said i need to work out why it still hurts so much...i was sitting yesterday trying to remember if i was as upset / sad last year at this time and i realised that i wasn't....


Because i was too concerned with whether i was pregnant or is my sadness based on whether I've got nothing in my life to focus on or is it that i get so catch up in all that is to do with me that i don't have time to think of anything else?

If that is the case have a ever really let myself grieve for my Dad?

My thinks a trip to the counselor would be a great help

Saturday, June 20, 2009


i am really struggling at the moment...

today is my Dad's birthday and tomorrow is fathers day in England so all that coupled with the anniversary on the 9th of this month makes it a very hard month for me indeed.

I think that i am sliding into a depressed state as I'm finding increasingly hard to enjoy life at the moment.

I have so much but still i cant seem to see it for what it's worth

Monday, June 15, 2009

Funny old time

it's been a weird/funny few days for me...

think that's just the leftover from Dad and his anniversary....

I thought i had so much that i wanted to say..but now that I've got a spare 5 minutes to blog...I've gone blank...

DollyGirl is going good, we changed her back to the old formula we were using...bad idea...she went back to screaming after her at least we now know that a low lactose formula is helping....makes me wonder if she is actually lactose intolerance? but hubby, Bear and I have no such allergies, so could DollyGirl have this allergy?

Bear tried to shut the car door with his head on Sunday....Alas it did not work and he ended up with a cut on his head....don't head wounds bleed so much....oh my god...there i was rubbing it better like i normally do if he has hit his head when i looked at my hand and .....blood!!!! Mum graped the car keys ran inside and cold/wet flannel to the head....and Bear...well he just wanted mum to get the cold thing off his head and "can we go in the car now and go and have some birthday cake?"...

We were on our way out the door to a friends 3rd birthday...when he hit his head....

I did not sleep to god on Sunday night even though i had put the monitor from DollyGirls room right next to Bear i still kept checking him all night...well you never know with head wounds..

But he is all good now...phew

I'm not sure if I'm sliding into depression or not as i am finding all too hard at the moment and feel that life is just the same old thing day in day out....


I'm just so bloody tired all the time?

bring on Stroud...i think i will sleep that whole not the whole weekend as i am so looking forward to catching up with all my sister that i haven't seen for so long

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Dear Dad

Today I have been thinking about you a lot, as it’s been 2 years since you left this world….

I was remembering the time that I climbed out of my bedroom window…after I made my sister promise on her own death that she would not breathe a word of where I had gone (we shared a room) and went out with my boyfriend of the time only to try to come back through the window to find it shut and you standing looking out at me!!! Oh my god…did I get into trouble or what….

And the time when you came into our bedroom to smack our bottoms because my sister and I would not go to sleep, we were talking instead, I told Sis to put a hardback book on our bums….you smacked me first then…made a very strange noise and walked out the bedroom…only to come back with the wooden spoon!!! You took the book away and …….never used the wooden spoon……

The time spend with you in the garage just handing you screws, nails, tools were some of my happiest times…as I had you all to myself.

I never knew until your funeral just how proud you were of me that day I had to catch two buses and walk an hour to get to a job interview, only to have the employment agency get the time wrong in the first place and I turned up 30 minutes late anyway…I got the job through because I didn’t take no for an answer. You told my sisters all about it on many occasions they told me when ever they didn’t try very hard to get something!!!

Sometimes Dad I wished you had told me…..would it have been so hard to have done so?

I miss you Dad, I miss the fact the children will never know what a great Papa you would have been…..that they will only know you through photos and my memories.

I remember how we used to ride around on your back pretending that you were our very own race horse…your knees must have been so sore after doing this for the 3 of us…but never a word of complaint did we hear.

So many memories I have to treasure….and I am extremely grateful for them….

I love you still very much and miss you everyday

Your darling Daughter

Monday, June 8, 2009


This was me yesterday.....

Hubby went to watch the Knights play so he left at 2:30pm and did not get home until 3:30am this morning....gasp...phew.....snore

So WonderWomen here had to play, feed, bath, dress, bottle and bed both Bear and DollyGirl by herself...

now this maynot seem like a big deal to some of you who may do this on a daily basis but i do not and it's a big thing for me to have done and done well with no tears, scream or shouting on my part or the kids!!!!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Ok got one

I'm grateful for...

My family's health

The fact my mum is coming over in Oct..(kind of rhymes)

That my washing machine is working..even if it leaks a wee bit

Our new carpet..oh yes i forgot to say we had carpet put in the bedrooms and hallway on Monday...looks and feeling great....

My lovely blue nails

Never again say i

Well I'm so over the day in day out of my life at the present moment...washing, cleaning, cooking, picking up after Bear, washing again.....and then washing again.....

and the weather is so not happening...cant go anywhere...cos it's persisting down.....

and on top of it all the said washing machine has now gone belly up....will cost about $500 to washing machine is in order......

Am trying to find a positive in my day......

no cant seem to find it yet...will get back to you on that one....

oh and maybe the fact that it's coming up to my Dad's anniversary is not helping